IF I HAD A BALLER BOYFRIEND

...and wanted to spoil the shit out of him (provided I had the ca$h), I would so get him this! With a basketball, new J's, and clothes. Wouldn't that be love! Dream on. Haha

UNDFTD + Incase Ballistic Basketball Bag.

THE FLAVOR OF BLAND

.. is the flavor of healthy. It feels good to think that you're putting nutritious, healthy food into your body. Therefore that makes it taste better. lol

• yogurt
• tea
• oatmeal
• vegetables (broccoli and edamame)

But of course that is all in compensation for the sodium-filled Filipino food that I ate today (: Couldn't resist stopping by DJ Bibinkahan in Carson on my way home from Irvine.

I GOT MY MIND MADE UP

Now let's put it into action. Or in this case, lack thereof.

THE MOST WONDERFUL TIME OF THE YEAR

I think it's kind of beautiful how we spend 10 weeks in a quarter working at our own individual paces, attending to our different priorities, focusing at varying intensities. Yet during finals we are all finally on the same page with one same priority: school, doing the best that we can do on those finals. Everyone is studying, not sleeping, and stressing the-hell out. We seek each other as study buddies and, essentially, sympathetic companions through the common struggle. Together we try to conquer the material mandated by our professors' syllabi and prevent test anxiety during the exact hour we are prompted to recall what we've learned (or crammed), straight from the top of our domes. Anticipating the ultimate moment that we are all relieved of our academic worries & obligations. Then party hopefully the hardest we have all quarter, because we don't have another darn homework, reading assignment, midterm or final to stress about! .. until next quarter, of course. I know, it's weird that i'm already talking about this and i haven't even taken my first final, but gotta keep a goal in mind!

Good luck on finals, everyone! Don't forget to rest, and just do your best.

LIVE YOUR PRAYERS, DON'T JUST SAY THEM

Why do we pray? Is it just to help us through the tough times, repent for our sins, and ask for forgiveness? Let's pray most especially to guide us to being good people and living like Christ daily. Ideally, why not just live with morals and act with justice throughout the week, or at least try to, instead of relying on one day of Sabbath to be absolved of our sins?

Why was I disturbed by what happened during the study session tonight? I do admit getting involved and finding interest in it; but at the same time, I didn't agree with it. Unlike the rest, I tried to defend the poor girl and rationally assess the situation. It's one thing to make such an embarrassing error, and to already have it broadcast via the internet. But to take it further by spreading it (no pun intended) to irrelevant people, investigating it, and trying to place a name to the person.. strips the person of their dignity. Just for the sake of your own enjoyment and entertainment? It's much too wrong and unnecessary. Come on, think about it.. what if that was your sister or girlfriend, or even just someone who's important to a friend of your own? Laugh at it, then let it it be. Let it go. Let the girl live after a mere accident. At the end of the day, how do you feel about yourself? while your social dignity is just peachy, and you made someone else's even worse? I'm never wearing a skirt AND being drunk in public ever again!

On a brighter note: A family that gets wild together, gets things handled together too. This gives me hope for the true meaning of family again.

OMG, HOW DID YOU KNOW?

My sister singing "Melt My Heart to Stone" by Adele. My sister is beautiful, I know :) and she took the words right out of my heart, that I had never before formed but felt nonetheless.


I find myself repeating like a broken tune
And I'm forever excusing your intentions

I best tidy up my head I'm the only one in love

Each and every time I turn around to leave

But instead I fall back to my knees
As you tear your way right through me
I forgive you once again

WHENEVER I'M STANDING MY OWN GROUNND,
YOU BUILD ME UP, THEN LEAVE ME DEAD.

NEWS

lost my job: laid off? possibly, because of the economy. kinda saw it coming since we weren't getting much business and i didn't foresee much work required from me in the future. "2 years," they said, when they hired me. fired? not sure, though sometimes i think i deserve it. i mean i did do my job 75% of the time (the other 25% was sleeping, eating, homework, blogging, internetting), and i did my job well. i would catch myself being entranced by my productive rhythm and unable to tear myself away. i sometimes did even more than was asked of me. & was honest with my time sheet. albeit, i came in late and/or hungover all the time, took advantage of the drinking water supply, dressed like a bum, and was short & lightweight-hostile with my supervisor... but i didn't ever get reprimanded nor did i receive fair warning, if i was doing anything to compromise my employment status there. so, maybe i didn't get fired, but my bad karma came around? anyway, ironic thing is i lost my job the same day my mom started her new job.

fight club: the book, loved it. tried watching the movie a long time ago but didn't understand it. had to read the book for a psychology "book report" (remember that term from, like, 4th grade?) and it knocked my socks off. i don't consider myself a leisure reader but, from forcing myself to read all my textbooks and articles this quarter, i was able to focus enough to finish it in like 5 hours total. or maybe it's just an easy read because it's that good! read it! read anything! just read.

vegetable & cream cheese sandwiches: take two slices of wheat bread. toast them lightly. spread philadelphia "light garden vegetable" cream cheese (the one with 1/3 less fat) on both slices. place spinach leaves, sliced tomatoes, cucumbers and bell peppers in between slices. it's a sandwich. eat it! sooooo yummy & nutritious! (copyright AmandaLee 2008)